So. It’s been quite some time since I’ve posted. Posted anything. And when I say its been some time, I mean months. Almost years. Two to be marginally exact.
There’s a very specific reason for that creative, and public absence. I have been walking through the fjords of self doubt, illness, and deconstruction.
I lost my job on September 21, 2011. A job I loathed, supervised by an affable yet cripplingly frightened, empty shirt who made the job even more loathesome.
That felt good to write. I’d been conflicted about even scratching the surface of my ire, for fear of rampaging into a venomous diatribe. I contemplated many ways of exorcising the anger I felt, both theoretical and practical.
Then, more opportunities disguised as hurdles appeared. And each one needed addressing before any movement could be made. So I hunkered down, prepared for battle, and slew a few remaining demons.
Having slain them, and realizing who I was after so long trying to be something I wasn’t, I got free. Scott freaking free. Free of most of my anger, free of my hesitation in fully embracing my art, and free of the fear of failure and rejection. I am now as free as a naked jaybird, on a summer morning, dancing in the dew of a new day.
Now, I will begin my assault on the creative world. I will write, draw, create my way to complete personal satisfaction.
And if there’s anyone interested in being a spectator to my spectacle, I’m glad to have ya along. I’ll be posting updates, bits and nits, all sorts of juicy morsels. Feel free to share your thoughts, critiques, and comments.
Peace for now.